I feel you on the burying your father due to alcohol. Before too long, as much as it pains me to say this, i will be doing the same. I know i never want to go down the same road he did with alcohol, he was always a hard workin man, but alcohol ruined his life again a few years back. He had been alcohol free for years, then a bad relationship and he threw his life away. He used to be a big feller, hard working..now thanks to alcohol he's down to nothing at all, a shell of what he used to be. I love my dad to death but it kills me to see him like that. I drink occasionally, but thanks to what i've witnessed through him, i know that i can never make drinking an everyday thing, or something that i do alot. Long history of drinking in my family as well, but knowing what it causes, i hope to never see me or anyone go down that road.